Too Small, Too Big?

Sidney's first set of clothes are already too small for her. Problem is, the next set is a little big!

It makes me sad and nostalgic when this happens to my babies (by "this", I mean, "getting bigger"). I have a special milk supply that apparently makes my babies into perfectly oval butterballs, complete with a budha belly and amazing legs!
It is when I first notice them plump out that I begin to think of them as big! And if I think Sidney is big, what does that make Jane, Alex, and especially Ashlyn? Of course, in my mind, I am still the perfect age of 25! Ashlyn is turning eight next week! WOW!

Jane wrote pen on Sidney's face, this picture is AFTER I tried to get it off!!!

Watching General Conference today made me think of all the ways I need to try to slow down my life and make sure I am making the most of this time. The truth is, I AM LOVING IT and I really don't want it to end! I have never really been one to want to go back to a certain time in my life and do it over, but I had a neighbor come by and mention how she would love to spend a half a day back in her life when her kids were younger and she could hold them and give them every bit of her attention. I can already feel myself feeling like this time is not enough. I really love to hold them when they are babies, but I also love to see them figure things out and try to act like they are big stuff. I love when they are starting school and I get to help them do homework and read. I even love when they are really finding themselves and we can talk about friends, teachers and joke and play together. I guess that is why I am perfectly happy right now, because I have one in each of those stages!

This week, even before I heard it at conference, I had made it a goal to spend more one-on-one time with each of my kids. Whether its lying in bed with them and talking before they fall asleep, or making homemade playdough and letting them choose the color. I am trying to make the most of the time I am sitting nursing Sidney too. I read with Alex, play school with Jane, and direct Ashlyn in her homework. The real sad thing is, I will still not do enough and will regret my inability to not do IT ALL. I guess that's why we still get to keep trying!